Process

I hate that im so unsure of myself. I hate that when it comes to my faith, im as sturdy as a soggy piece of paper. Someone suggests something(that isn't even directed towards me)...like maybe im dead spiritually, and i automatically think I am. That i have such a poor spiritual life that its amazing im still even following God...or that I project the image of a follower of Christ.
I get sucked into all the Christian gimics of 'youre-not-good-enough-maybe-you-should-repent-and-reaccept-Christ' or dumb things like that.

HAVING LOW SELF ESTEEM SUCKS!

I feel so worn out...I want to cry but I can't. Everything has been streching me too far and too long...It'll be amazing if I actually post this...this is super truthful and it's scares me that people are actually going to read this...